yep. i just said that.
gotta call it like i saw {and smelled} it...and "it" was none other than shit.
like the real human poop kind of shit & lots of it.
my best guess is eight years of it. not that i am an expert in this sort of thing.
the kind pump truck driver says every three to fours years you need to pump the septic.
it makes for a "healthy" system-i was afraid to confess to pump man that i didn't really think about our "system" beyond the flush. how shallow am i?
the same weekend, God very BOLDLY showed us the treatment we have been praying would heal peter, is in fact destroying him. he is done-ready to stop fighting a battle that we continue to lose ground on anyway. that's even shittier.
yes. there are regrets & guilt & tears, but now we can relax and live and let life unfold however God decides. i can stop being a nurse & slip back into my peaceful role as wife.
in all of the shittiness of that last weekend, i do know God is still here-loves our family-has provided for us during this three year fight. the unexpected shit of last weekend has drawn us closer together as a family.
now i am off to flush with wild abandon-but somewhere between the 2016 summer olympic closing ceremonies and the november presidential elections i must remember to give kind pump man a call. he will be so proud i remembered to maintain the "health" of our system.
I love that God has continues to allow you to keep your sense of humor in all of this!! Yes, things are shitty, but He will get you through!!!
ReplyDeleteI knew there was a reason "shit happens"...to allow God to do His good work in us, through us and in His time! So much struggle, growth, and grace these last few years but what a witness you and your family have been to so many people as you did everything humanly possibly for Peter. Here's to keeping all systems healthy!
ReplyDeleteBlessings~